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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-14 08:39 pm

Cold weekend

Yesterday (Saturday), after the weekly house cleaning, and cleaning up some window panes(it was cloudy and the best condition to clean the pane, I wanted to clean all the windows but did not have enough time) I left home for the music hall. It's in the popular shopping area near the port, there were may people enjoying the shopping or just strolling around and looking at the Xmas decorations. The town was full of the merry mood of December.



I don't dislike such festive atmosphere, but dislike the crowded shopping mall :( , passed through the shopping area and went to the hall to enjoy the concert of classical music. The program was Beethoven's Symphony No.9. I don't know why but here in Japan this symphony is performed quite frequently in this time of year so "the concert of Symphony No.9" arouses the end of the year festive mood. The performance was so so, not the best but this is one of my favorite symphony so I felt quite good after the concert :)



Then I met a friend to have supper together. The food and chatting with a friend were good. It was a good afternoon and evening. Though when we left the restaurant we noticed the slight rain, and the coldness. With rain it was really cold:( It has kept raining all night it seemed, when I woke up this morning (Sunday) it's still raining. Today I was going to do some garden task but it's wet and cold, I gave up my plan and did some indoor housework. It's cold, one of our garden cat was miaowing miserably for a while outside of the window...



"Let me in..."

Then he gave up and seemed to get into the cardboard boxes (which I have put on the wooden verandah some time ago) with other cat (or cats ... I couldn't see how many in the box XD).



Behind the white cat I could see the ear of another cat in the box XD

It's cold all day today still some leaves in our garden showed beautiful color. The early winter...

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petalpicky ([personal profile] petalpicky) wrote2025-12-12 10:10 am

i have long experimented with being sure of myself

i will let you fall to the wayside. i will kindly let you piss me off and i will not let you piss me off again. i will begin to hesitate. continue to hesitate. i will let you feel like you're waiting. i will not let you know there is nothing to wait for. i will not stomp you out. when you look my way you will only ever see my eyelids in a blur. you won't know that you are the only thing on my mind. the incidental void i patiently whittled is heavier than it looks. i need you to teach me a new kind of patience. it's hard to give up always holding the line. i will open my hands and lay the line down for you.
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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-12 12:22 pm
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Cold air

For a few days the weather forecast has warned the coldness on Friday and weekend. They were right. This morning it’s sunny but windy, and cold! I wore many layers of warm clothes still when I left home I felt it’s “cold”, not “chilly”! Something has changed in the air, now I feel the winter has come…
not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-11 11:37 am
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#207- caffiene!

yesterday I was like "Evan is 1400, why the fuck are you on your second energy drink"
SO I'M HALFWAY THROUGH MY SECOND RN
my heart is like exploding, I wanna lick it


-Dead Man
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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-10 07:26 pm
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The short days in eary winter

On workday I set the alarm clock at 6am. Though, in this time of an year around 6am it's still dark, thus it's difficult to wake up comfortably, I feel like it's almost against the humanity to wake up before the sunrise !! :( And, sunset is around 16:30 - short days! When the season is changing from autumn to winter, I tend to think that it's still late autumn... but now I notice it's already winter though there remain many fruits on my persimmon trees in the garden. The red and yellow leaves are falling, when we don't have sunshine it's quite chilly and gloomy. This morning I walked to the office beyond the hill, and from the hilltop I saw Mt.Fuji far away, and its top was covered with snow. Now the real winter is coming...







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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-09 10:22 pm
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The happiness XD

The image of the happiness X)



A relaxed , sleepy cat in the sun. :)
not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-08 08:16 am
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#206- headache

"the other night I cried while thinking about having sex with you, not out of desire or shame but some subconscious desire to feel pain. I wiped my tears on my face and neck and the back of my ears. And said, 'Now it's sweat, now it's sweat, it's sweat now'"

Yesterday I was at Ian's house and her 6'5 dad was looming over her, asking for something while she was directly telling him no. I js kinda watched from afar. I later said that I was really scared he was gonna hurt her, to which he pointed out my attention seeking behaviours. I don't really know how like a "normal healthy family" works. Ian didn't get scared when the parents got home, people were talking to each other but like voluntarily, people would eat so casually and not get made fun of. CRAZY


-Dead Man
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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-08 09:43 pm
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A frog

My friend K likes frogs, both of the real ones and frog shaped stuff, like I like geckos. Thus, when I go out with her and find something with frog motif ... we often do this.



Taking a photo with the frog! XD
not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-07 11:57 am
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#205- T-minus 30 minutes

I'm wearing my most comfy underwear, I've had about 1.5 energy drinks, my fingy hurts from my boots, and I got my wallet in my pocket. I'm ready to go to my Ian's house!!! I'm leaving in about 30 minutes. I'm meeting her mother for the first time and I'm about ready to shit my pants you have no idea. I am so fucking scared bro.
arf!


-Dead Man
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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-07 10:39 pm
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flower vase

I always put the small flower vase on the windowsill of the bathroom. Not the expensive flowers but the flowers or leaves from our own garden. For weeks I have enjoyed the chrysanthemum flowers in it, but now they began to wither, maybe this is the last chrysanthemum display in the autumn...



But I also like put the small twig or leaves in the small vase like this X)



I like having these small pieces of the nature in my house :)
not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-06 07:03 pm
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#204- [GUY NAME]

so I told [GUY NAME] about my feelings towards him. I don't really understand them myself to be honest. He told someone that he gave up on loving me because I didn't like him the same, smth like that, idk. So I messaged him basically saying "I'm gay for you but never told you bc I didn't want to ruin things."
He rejected me. I didn't fucking ask him out. I don't not want to date him, but I didn't like- ask him to date or anything. He came up with reason after reason as to why not date instead of js rejecting me flat out. Worst part is he's been weird since then, I told him like a week ago and he's been barely talking to me since then. When we do talk it's weird. I miss him.
I wish I never said that faggot bullshit.


-Dead name
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not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-06 09:09 am
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#203- kms

___ suggested a break up, my first thought was "what? no. Never. I wouldn't leave someone because of this." But then I thought on it for a bit and idk. I kinda hate her. I know I shouldn't. I know that's bad, but I just do. I don't know what to do, my current plan is to just... wait.
Whatever man my fucking tummy fucking hurts


-Dead Man
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katriona_s ([personal profile] katriona_s) wrote2025-12-06 11:59 pm
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Autumn colour

Yesterday, on Friday I took a day off from the office and went out with my friend. We enjoyed one day trip to some hot spring, not very far from Yokohama. It’s in the suburban area, there are some small Japanese style hotels with hot spring. The hot spring was nice, and also, we saw many trees with red and yellow leaves - now those autumn colours were going, soon the leaves would fall, though they were beautiful enough.







It was a nice holiday :)
not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-05 05:28 pm
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#202- grr

Her and I aren't really talking rn. I have nothing nice to say so I won't say anything at all, that's what my mom was supposed to teach me, yeah?
I'm like barely through my first drink of the day js cause I don't wannna, idk why
I had a school assignment and part of it was shopping at my favourite store so now I REALLY REALLY want new boots but I can't so sigh


-Dead Man
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not_real ([personal profile] not_real) wrote2025-12-04 09:45 am
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#201- arf!

I got woken up last night and ugh I hate how long it always takes me to get back down. I'm so fucking eepy bro, the lack of caffiene prolly has smth to do with it.
I keep having these nightmares where people leave me and waking up is CRAZY
I wish I could like fuck an energy drink, yknow?
my mother is so fucking explosive bro


-Dead Man
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Judith Proctor ([personal profile] watervole) wrote2025-12-04 08:23 am
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Diabetes

 My first group diabetes talking session is later today.

I'm going to be the thinnest diabetic in the room by far. (because most of the others are likely to have type 2 diabetes)

My weight has fallen gradually over the last few years (which I now know was due to my body finding it harder to produce enough insulin), but not feeling like eating when I had the flu has brought me to an adult lifetime low of 48.4kg which is definitely too low.

The trouble is partly that I'm tired, my asthma is still bad (I've just started on a steroid course) and I can't seem to get interested in food. 

I've put a small bowl of mixed nuts by my computer to encourage nibbling.   I've asked my husband to offer me fruit whenever he has some (nibbling a persimmon right now).

I'm open to ideas...

I tending to eat small quantities, I really need more, but I just don't feel hungry....

 

I don't think it's anorexia - I like the way I look. I've been this shape (well, with nearer 550kg) all my adult life, and I'm very happy with it

I'll let you know if the person running the meeting has any suggestions!  Meanwhile, I can at least have a guilt-free square of quality chocolate.