GOD FUCKING DAMNIT

Tuesday, 22 April 2025 22:32
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ALL SHE EVER WAS WAS A NOOSE TO HANG ON TO (/REF) BUT FUCK MAN, AT LEAST IT WAS STABLE. AT LEAST SHE MADE ME FEEL LIKE I COULD BE HELPED. SHE WAS TRYING, SHE WAS TRYING CAUSE SHE WANTED TO, NOT FOR HER OWN BENEFIT. STRANGERS ARE SPECIAL IN THAT WAY. WHY DO I CARE. WHY AM I FUCKED UP OVER THIS . SHE PROBABLY DOESN'T THINK ABOUT ME ? WHY ? WHAT THE FUCK DID SHE DO TO ME. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED AFTER SHE TOLD ME TO RELAX, TO RELAX AND CLOSE MY EYES AND LISTEN. I CAN'T REMEMBER.

the poison and thorns of an angel

Wednesday, 23 April 2025 00:54
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dirty knees break my fall
from the world of dreams, the world of clouds
the place i came from all along
where endless voices sing my song

though why is it when i look down
i see those tears drop all around
is it my fault?
up from the cloud
i think i made them all spellbound....

the sillhoutte of both my wings
cast shadows over their heartstrings
enslaved them to my shining stars
an angel's curse, i've realised-

-that i can't bring them up with me
without their wings, they cannot see
the dreams and skies i see with ease
when all translates to poetry....

i feel entrapped up in my cloud
don't want to stand out from the crowd
don't want my light to make them bleed
don't want a cult that follows me

i pluck at both my angel wings
feather by feather so they'll see
i'm not your idol or your excuse
for you to commit self-abuse

i'm not perfection, i'm not your answer
i'm not your god, i'm not your nemesis
i glide through life the same as you
i do my best to just get through

but
it just so happens
i'm an angel.
i'm sorry.
it seems......

i'm an angel.

happy earth day, eveyone!

Tuesday, 22 April 2025 20:17
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grow a plant today! (◕‿◕✿)

woof woof bark bark !!!

Tuesday, 22 April 2025 11:25
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iott_9

Tuesday, 22 April 2025 11:23

the wooden block

Monday, 21 April 2025 19:25
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the wooden block is placed with a click
it may burn but the ashes remain
this is not about blocks

me wh

Monday, 21 April 2025 13:49

iott_8

Monday, 21 April 2025 10:04
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Alfredo suggested this 1

oh well!

Monday, 21 April 2025 06:07
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Well then, i did maybe just attempt to confess my feelings for someone only for them to either not understand that i did that or not feel the same way and play it as if i had not Welp im not sure how i feel! ` Hermes

happy easter :)

Monday, 21 April 2025 01:13
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heres a pic of me that my cousin took last night, holding a egg with confetti that has miffy/nijntje painted on
(pls ignore the confetti in my hair lol)


click click click click boom

Sunday, 20 April 2025 22:52
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i'm gonna fucking snap

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#8- It's to much

Sunday, 20 April 2025 20:44
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Everytime I argue with him, I just remwmber every shit thing hes ever did. I uh wanna opt out but won't. I'll just go eepys

i miss you i miss u

Sunday, 20 April 2025 19:45
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i miss a lot of people, turns out. i like. kinda wanna index them in my diary thing because i like keeping track, i like having data on myself. I think i might do "it" not killing myself but like. Idkidk i feel like my life was better when i was doing worse??? it was fun..? it was fun. gotta get my fucking grades up though. sighhh

I WANNA BE A GUYYY

Sunday, 20 April 2025 11:56
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like??? that person is a shell, they're real, they have. body, but not a soul, there is nothing in there that makes them a person, a chip with no code, an empty cup, a blank piece of paper, a keyboard untouched, dead batteries.

oh boy i AM unstable

Sunday, 20 April 2025 00:01
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I'm really sorry about who i am. i can't fucking listen and I'm really sorry and that doesn't make it better. oh fucking well. The pain will go away, and if it doesn't i will convince myself it is.

bars 2

Saturday, 19 April 2025 21:39
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call me stefen butler the way i snatch these bands
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I am alone. all i do is waste my time doing fucking nothing- frying my brain on the internet for hours straight. It's nauseating really. I wanna go back sometimes, i wanna go back and let her control me so i don't have to care. Never have i ever seen someone so doomed as you two, i could draw so many parallels but you hate those people so, you don't realize that in this case you are exactly like them. He says that and i know he's right but that's not the reason I don't. I just like to take the path of least resistance, as much as i liked it i think it'd make people mad. Sometimes i hope you crash and burn, i hope you regret it and i hope you realize that you are awful rotten pieces of shit. I will be there to pick up the pieces. I will abandon you when i can. As soon as the opportunity arises I am going to dissapear. I don't care about these connections because ultimately they are shallow. You do not know me, you do not know me wholly because nobody ever has. I am here and then the next day i am not, maybe you'll attend my funeral, maybe you'll ask my family about me, but you will never get the full picture because so much of it is in my head. So much of it is with people who could not possibly be connected to me by any natural means. Sometimes i think it's sad, sometimes it's freedom. By Febuary 26th 2032 i will be dead to you. This is a promise, your life will be better because of it, don't worry. You wont even notice, I'm sure.

happy saturday

Saturday, 19 April 2025 12:37
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happy saturday everyone

heres a song that ive been listening to :)

#7- Shes upset but is she real?

Friday, 18 April 2025 19:17
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My gf is upset with me for like a mostly reasonable reason so imma just wait till she starts messaging me back again.
Okay so anyways like is she real? like I'M real bc Cogito, ergo sum
Does time even exist?
Cogito, ergo sum
Cogito, ergo sum
Cogito, ergo sum
Cogito, ergo sum
I swear.
She promised me I was real but is she real? she reads all of these and yesterday (even though yesterday prolly doesn't exist) she told me to not talk about this so that neither her nor I become detatched from reality (not the words she used, what are words?) so I'll stop.

The key to intelligence is memory.


-M.W.M.
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